DeadDaddyStories

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This blog is intended for personal use. I have the spent the past two years essentially developing a mental illness. In those two measly years, I have had two inpatient hospitalizations plus two more outpatient ones. I've unburied childhood sexual abuse and as a result, been made a monster in the eyes of my family. I have been armed with an arsenal medications and have been branded with Bipolar I Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder.

Tumblr critics and therapists alike say that we may over identify with our disorders. They warn us to not let them define us. However, mental illness does become part of our definition. While I do not let it limit me, it is a part of my identity. It shapes the way I view inequality. It's given me a voice that I've never had before. I am a nurse and Bipolar Disorder does not hinder my profession. Instead, it helps me identify with the patients other nurses have already given up on.

ANTM

Reblogged from treysocrunchy

treysocrunchy:

anotherdeaddaddyallegory:

Am I the only one INFURIATED with Tyra banks and that 1 she gave Lenox?!!

She’s 19. God forbid she be uncomfortable with her sexuality. She’s a teenager. Sexuality is not something that comes naturally to some. In fact, it can even traumatic. You don’t know Lenox’s life story. How dare you…

Don’t be so butt hurt because of Tyra’s decision to give that girl a 1. For you to excuse yourself from $250,000 teaching from one of the legends of sexy! It’s the industry of modeling just because she was uncomfortable MEANS NOTHING!!! If she did that in the real world of modeling she would’ve just lost her income. Tyra saved her so she could learn and work hard and harder! Modeling is not for whining babies! It’s for people willing to break boundaries

Yeah….cause selling sex is so groundbreaking. Really pushing the boundaries there.

You’re missing the point..

"To add to your Lenox post, this is the second time Tyra has pulled a stunt like this. In the USA vs UK season Azmerie refused to put on a butt pad for a Tyra teach on booty tooching because she felt uncomfortable about it so Tyra kicked her out of the entire teach and then guess which contestant got eliminated at that week's panel?"

Asked by iblanc

I didn’t know that. I didn’t watch that season for some reason.

But yeah …for a woman who advocates for all shapes and sizes in the model industry, she seems a bit too eager to make everyone conform.

If Lenox goes home though, I am 100% positive that this cycle is being stacked for a male win.

Reblogged from sasuketheavenger

tornater:

Tyra… girl… we know you’re doing this because you’re thirsty for a boy to win and that won’t happen with Lenox around.

Reblogged from lovethemysterious

lasthopes:

tyra banks just gave a girl a 1 on her americas next top model challenge because she didn’t know how to be sexy and sell sex. wtf is wrong with society

"Your post regarding Lenox on ANTM and her issues with being comfortable with her sexuality was on point. Amen, sister!"

Asked by theperksofbeingminxiu

Thanks! I really couldn’t believe her behavior.

"I just had a comment about your ANTM post, I completely agree with you about Lennox! Tyra was being so rude to her and said that Lennox didn't take her activity seriously..I don't remember Lennox laughing once. She stopped because she felt embarrassed. And then for Tyra to only give her 5 frames for the next photo shoot??? Like way to kick her while she's down"

Asked by Anonymous

I lost so much respect for her. I was shocked by behavior. She’s supposed to be this supportive person that advocates for women and she can’t see the problem with this.

People have been uncomfortable with being sexy every cycle. Where did this one and punitive five frames bull shit come from?

"You're a beautiful person, don't let anyone tell you otherwise (:"

Asked by Anonymous

Thanks you for the anon positivity. Sometimes I really need it.

ANTM

Am I the only one INFURIATED with Tyra banks and that 1 she gave Lenox?!!

She’s 19. God forbid she be uncomfortable with her sexuality. She’s a teenager. Sexuality is not something that comes naturally to some. In fact, it can even traumatic. You don’t know Lenox’s life story. How dare you diminish her for being uncomfortable with being PRESSURED in a SEXUAL situation. How the fuck do I get in contact with the show/Tyra so she can be educated.

I get that she “gave up” or whatever but a one was overkill and then on top of that gave her five frames next week. Punishing her for being uncomfortable with herself. Great fucking message Tyra.

Psych meds update

I had to increase my seroquel back to its normal dose. A few days without it and I completely lose it.

I spent two days unable to move, crying, researching suicide ideas, and writing multiple drafts of a suicide note.

…. I just feel like a complete failure that a measly 150 mg of seroquel brought me to the brink of death …yet again.

"A part of having a Borderline Personality means, my self-worth varies from day to day, some days I’m confident in myself and can see light in the future. I have a new plan and it’s going to work this time!
Other days, a lot of days, I’m trying to convince myself that there is actually a point to my existence because there is nothing ahead of me. What good is a dream when there’s no way it could possibly happen."

Reblogged from lion-hearted-girl-x

Chelsea D (my-mental-mentality)

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