Feel free to reblog personal posts. Apparently people get offended by that.
This blog is intended for personal use. I have the spent the past two years essentially developing a mental illness. In those two measly years, I have had two inpatient hospitalizations plus two more outpatient ones. I've unburied childhood sexual abuse and as a result, been made a monster in the eyes of my family. I have been armed with an arsenal medications and have been branded with Bipolar I Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder.
Tumblr critics and therapists alike say that we may over identify with our disorders. They warn us to not let them define us. However, mental illness does become part of our definition. While I do not let it limit me, it is a part of my identity. It shapes the way I view inequality. It's given me a voice that I've never had before. I am a nurse and Bipolar Disorder does not hinder my profession. Instead, it helps me identify with the patients other nurses have already given up on.
Reblogged from another-girl-interruptedx
This week. I feel it coming on at times quickly and other times slowly. Always when the outside world begins to drain me of all my strength. When I feel out of touch and totally overwhelmed. I am unable to regulate my emotions or cope with the smallest distress. My roller coaster emotions leave me exhausted. I need time to decompress as if my life depends on it.
I have jumped on the maze runner bandwagon and read all 4 books in 5 days. I think Netflix has created a society where everything is done in binges.
Now that i have perused the tumblr fandom, I really don’t understand the comparison of maze runner to divergent or the hunger games.
1) all three of those books were basically written or were in production at the same time sooooo get off your high horse
2) it’s nothing like divergent. Not in the slightest (ok tbh ..I only saw the movie so idk about the books)
3) the only thing it has in common with the hunger games is that it’s a post apocalyptic young adult book that pits young people against the government in a world where the government has the resources to manipulate everything (ie artificial arenas that will kill you) ….GUYS this is the plot line to EVERY single book in this genre, including the ones that way predate this current trend (ie brave new world or Fahrenheit 451)
4) if you really wanna get all in a tizzy about the author copying other plot lines. Let’s talk about how mazerunner basically is lord of the flies meets RESIDENT EVIL.
….maybe I’m just too old but c’mon. Wicked = umbrella
Reblogged from missgelle
reblog and make a wish!
this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)
OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.
THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.
The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.
AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.
THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.
I SAW THIS ON MY DASH THE OTHER DAY AND THOUGHT “ITS WORTH A TRY” SO I WISHED I COULD GET A 3DS
LITERALLY LIKE 4 DAYS LATER MY DAD SENT ME A PICTURE OF THE 3DS XL HE BOUGHT FOR ME WHILE I WAS AT SCHOOL
IM STILL FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS
holy fuck, I didn’t expect this to work, I was like psh, whatever it’s just a quick reblog, but I wished my Dad would actually respond back to me AND HE FUCKING DID A FEW DAYS LATER, I GOT A FUCKING TEXT FROM MY DAD TODAY WHO HASN’T SPOKEN OR RESPONDED TO ME IN MONTHS HOLY FUCK WHAT IS THIS MAGIC IT WORKS.
I WANTED TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND AND I DIDN’T THINK I’D GET DAYS OFF BUT THIS WEEKEND I’M HEADING UP THERE??? THIS IS CRAZY SHIT
SO LIKE I JOKINGLY WISHED FOR MY OWN LEN KAGAMINE AND THEN LIKE A WEEK LATER I GOT A LEN NENDOROID??? H ELP
WTF OKAY SO THIS SHOT ACTUALLY WORKS BECAUSE WHEN I WISHED, I HAD WISHED MY CRUSH WOULD LIKE ME BACK AND GUESS WHAT? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW. WHAT THE HELLLLL?????
ok I’ve said this before but IM DOING IT AGAIN THE FIRST TIME I SAW THIS, MY WISH DID COME TRUE SO I REBLOGED AGAIN AND SAID IT IN THE TAGS BUT THEN I WISHED FOR SMTH ELSE AND IT LITERALLY LITERALLY HAPPENED LIKE A COUPLE DAYS LATER WHAT THE HELL SO NOW IM WRITING THIS HERE FOR YOU BC I DONT BELIEVE IN THIS CRAP BUT STILL IT’S AN AWFULLY BIG COINCIDENCE
OKAY I SWEAR TO GOD THIS THING WORKS YOU HAVE TO PATIENT BC I WISHED THAT I COULD MOVE AWAY FROM MY SHITTY TOWN TO A WARM PLACE AND GUESS WHAT THIS JULY IM MOVING TO NORTH CAROLINA OKAY GUYS IM NOT MAKING THIS UP I AM SO CONFUSED ACTUALLY THIS IS GREAT BYE
LEMME TELL U SOMETHING THIS SHIT WORKS
Worked once for me already.
So hey …why not?
Nosy ass woman in walgreens: you shouldn’t do that. It encourages them to use drugs.
The woman CONTINUES about how people need to hit rock bottom before they get help.
Me: idk about you, but if I were homeless I sure as fuck wouldn’t want to be sober.
All of a sudden, I hear a phone go off in the patients from.
Patient: fuck I thought I put that on silent.
(She then walks over to me and hands me the phone without me even saying anything. )
Patient: you’re gonna snitch on me any way
Me: you got that in here even with them searching you?
Patient: uh huh
Me: naw man. You keep it. That’s impressive.
….I’m the best employee ever.
I noticed that some of my followers have been able to keep their phones while inpatient. That is NOT the case here. They strip search the patients on this high security floor im currently on.
I follow people who are ….
- fitness gods
- sexual trauma survivors
- people with bpd and mental illness
- social workers
- med students
- drug addicts that post nothing but syringes and pills
- in support of James Holmes
- severely suicidal
- in recovery
- fans of dance moms, antm, Sherlock, and Harry potter
Seriously what the FUCK does my tumblr say about me??
Reblogged from oceans-ofherdream
do u ever start to do a thing that is Stereotypically Mentally Ill (i.e. rocking, crying n muttering and doing Weird movements) and u feel like u r Faking it to seem mentally ill. even tho its completely involuntary and u r alone so thers no one to fake to except urself