Feel free to reblog personal posts. Apparently people get offended by that.
This blog is intended for personal use. I have the spent the past two years essentially developing a mental illness. In those two measly years, I have had two inpatient hospitalizations plus two more outpatient ones. I've unburied childhood sexual abuse and as a result, been made a monster in the eyes of my family. I have been armed with an arsenal medications and have been branded with Bipolar I Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder.
Tumblr critics and therapists alike say that we may over identify with our disorders. They warn us to not let them define us. However, mental illness does become part of our definition. While I do not let it limit me, it is a part of my identity. It shapes the way I view inequality. It's given me a voice that I've never had before. I am a nurse and Bipolar Disorder does not hinder my profession. Instead, it helps me identify with the patients other nurses have already given up on.
I can’t stop thinking about cutting. I can’t. I haven’t felt this overwhelmed in a long fucking time
One more screenshot from this amazing lecture I’m a bit of a psychiatry nerd. Don’t judge.
The picture on the left is a normal brain responding to an unknown sound. Note the spike. This wave is representative of a brain signal that tell us to ignore other things and figure out what this unknown sound.
Now look at the PTSD brain on the right. Not only are we unable to ignore variable factors, but our brains can’t even coordinate our reactions. Look as the colored lines do not work together.
Another notable thing is the brain activity above. With that unknown sound, a PTSD brain does not have the ability to use the left hemisphere.
Seriously guys…AWESOME LECTURE
This is a screen shot of the lecture I posted below. The top shows brain activity of a normal person who is able to experience the “here and now.”
The bottom shows brain activity of someone in a chronic state of dissociation.
Why do I always find myself praying to a god I don’t believe in, wishing for death?
Me: I got the new shrink to change my dose to ativan AND increase it
Therapist: how did you manage that
Me: it was simple. I learned this trick years ago.
Me: you just begin the sentence with “well (therapists name) thinks it’s might be a good idea if …”
Therapist: I thought we worked out these manipulative borderline tendencies
Me: you gotta admit. It can come in handy. And it’s not my fault there’s absolutely no continuity in healthcare
Reblogged from amberleigh411
Seriously, what the police are doing is not “bad”, it’s illegal.
There is a reason why people are raging mad at this situation, and it’s because it’s a blatant violation of basic human rights.
If you don’t understand that, then you are part of the problem.